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    Monday, July 30th, 2007
    10:43 am
    122.6
    no plan as of yet
    Thursday, August 25th, 2005
    3:35 pm
    113.4


    sometimes i feel like being busy/stressed is being sucsessful. like it's all one in the same. and people who aren't always going are failures. i'm starting college full time, monday, i'm working 27ish hours at my current job, and then starting a second job in 3 weeks, plus working out, homework, and having a pretty decent social calandar. plus i babysit (i forgot about that until they just called me to babysit tonight). plus i'm crazy about writing everything down. every day i do one major thing after work, like cleaning, babysitting, plans with friends, shopping and i feel like i need to write it down on my purse calander or it's like it never happened. i feel like i have to SEE a full calander every month in order to prove that i was successful that month. the last time i did not having something planned after work was the 14th of this month, and i look at that day like it was a waste.
    sometimes i can't drink pop out of classes. becasue it tatse so good. i usually check a can/bottle 8 to 10 times to make sure it says diet, when it's in a glass i can't keep checking and it makes me nuts.
    sometimes i wish for 1 day i could be sane. but i'm afriad if i dont keep doing what i'm doing that i will fall behind. behind of what? i dont know. so i march forward, with my busy life, and all my little neurotic habits until one day i get better, or get much much worse.
    Tuesday, August 23rd, 2005
    9:20 am
    113.8
    Friday, August 19th, 2005
    10:43 am
    today is day 1 of a 10 day fast.
    i hope to loose 10 lbs.
    Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
    12:22 pm
    breakfast & lunch -331 cals 10 carbs
    9:10 am
    today 115.2
    getting better. i have dinner with the girls later, i'll have to figure something out.... fuck.
    Tuesday, August 16th, 2005
    12:19 pm
    116.2 again today.
    i binged lastnight on goldfish crackers, and i think the sodium is killing me.
    Monday, August 15th, 2005
    11:36 am
    boreddd
    TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
    Eye Color: brown
    Hair Color: black and white
    Height: 5'4
    Right Handed or Left Handed: right
    Your Heritage: sicilian/polish
    The Shoes You Wore Today: sacony
    Your Weakness: cuddleing
    Your Fears: being fat
    Your Perfect Pizza: 0 cal pizza
    Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: 4.0 for 1st semester, maintain 100 lbs
    Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: "lol"
    Thoughts First Waking Up:i wonder what the scale will say
    Your Best Physical Feature: my hair rocks
    Your Bedtime: 1-3am
    Your Most Missed Memory: i try not to miss things
    Pepsi or Coke: diet pepsi
    MacDonalds or Burger King: neither
    Single or Group Dates: single!
    Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: diet lipton with lemon
    Chocolate or Vanilla: vanilla
    Cappuccino or Coffee: latte
    Do you Smoke: yes
    Do you Swear: yes
    Do you Sing: not very well
    Do you Shower Daily: yes
    Have you Been in Love: no
    Do you want to go to College: i start in 2 weeks
    Do you want to get Married: yes
    Do you believe in yourself: no
    Do you get Motion Sickness: yes
    Do you think you are Attractive: no
    Are you a Health Freak: yes
    Do you get along with your Parents: yes
    Do you like Thunderstorms: yes
    Do you play an Instrument: sort of
    In the past month have you Drank Alcohol: yes
    In the past month have you Smoked: yes
    In the past month have you been on Drugs: no
    In the past month have you gone on a Date: no
    In the past month have you gone to a Mall: yes
    In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos: no
    In the past month have you eaten Sushi: no :(
    In the past month have you been on Stage: yes. ha.
    In the past month have you been Dumped: no
    In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping: no
    In the past month have you Stolen Anything: no
    Ever been Drunk: yes
    Ever been called a Tease: yes
    Ever been Beaten up: no
    Ever Shoplifted: yes
    How do you want to Die: peacefully
    What do you want to be when you Grow Up: no idea
    What country would you most like to Visit: sicily
    number of Drugs I have taken: 2
    Number of CDs I own: alot
    Number of Piercings: 0
    Number of Tattoos: 10ish?
    Number of things in my Past I Regret: 1
    10:19 am
    woke up today - 116.2
    skipped brekafast, oops.
    Sunday, August 14th, 2005
    6:19 pm
    i just finished dinner.

    total for day - 311 cals, 2 carbs.
    i am so happy, and off to a great new start
    1:31 pm
    so i gained all the weight back i lost this week and i'm at 116.8 again.
    i haven't been this high in months, i dont know whats wrong with me. or if i will ever regain control.

    i'm going to do 400-600-800 till the end of this month.
    yesterday i blew 400 but today i'm going to do max 600.
    for breakfast i had 80 cals, i think i'll be okay today.

    i'm also going to be tracking everything on fitday. i'm always off and on with fitday but i feel liek it will help me regain control
    Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
    7:47 pm
    today 115.2
    i am so pissed.
    i wanted to be 110 by tommarow.
    i dont see a 5 lbs drop happening overnight
    its too hot to function.
    so i'm hiding in my room with some diet lipton iced tea
    Monday, August 8th, 2005
    12:49 pm
    i managed to balloon up to 116. i am so disgusted i didn't want to post it.
    but i feel like i want to keep this thing accurate.
    i feel horrible, and embarassed, and this just sucks.
    i was hopeing for 110 by thursday, i'll have to fast and i doubt i'll even make it.
    fuck.
    Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
    8:31 am
    113.2
    i thought i lost atleast a pound.
    fuck.
    Tuesday, August 2nd, 2005
    2:48 pm
    today breakfast 2 carb - 50 cals
    lunch 4 carb




    tonight i am relaxing for the first time in ages.
    i am going to work out for a bit
    drink plenty of water
    take a long shower
    read a book

    no dinner.
    8:53 am
    after my horrible day yesterday i'm up to 113.4 ugh. so pissed.
    Monday, August 1st, 2005
    11:18 am
    so right after i posted my last post i ate a huge bagel with some cream cheese. i feel sick. and disgusting and that puts me at 667 cals for today and it's only 11 am. i am a fucking idiot. i am not eating for the rest of the day. treadmill here i come...
    8:58 am
    112.8 again
    breakfast- 2 carb 85 cal
    Sunday, July 31st, 2005
    1:36 pm
    breakfast-asleep
    lunch - 7 carbs


    30 minute jog on treadmill
    11:54 am
    112.8
    finally i'm losing again.
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